What you'll never hear about

What you'll never know

Is that I looked up to you

Even while you were weak.

You won't even learn about

How much it warped my mind

To learn you never gave me a chance

To be what you taught me I was

You'll never ever see

How much you really hurt me

You distorted my vision and deep inside

I can no longer separate you from lies.

It's so unfortunate you know.

How much trust and confidence I had in you

I wonder if you know what its like
To hate the mirror
The look of your skin, your eyes
Your stomach, your boobs, your thighs
To want to be beautiful
and hope what reflects in the glass
is an illusion, maybe a lie

Do you know how it feels?
to want to feel worthy of vanity
to dress up in stupid irony
and cry because you feel ugly
the useless cloth falling unflatteringly
making you feel disgusting, so perfectly?

I know how it can be.
To feel sick from your own image

Blinking lights
radio speakers
cosmic fuzz and chemistry beakers
microphone feedback
future bleaker
hairless cats and brand new sneakers
cherry chips with
chocolate crisps
monetary flips and
hair clips
we're just a bunch
of pretty little chicks
soaring in the mechanical sky
just don't. 
don't even.
think you ever 
could die.
without first, 
learning how to fly.
in this world metal
colder harsher hard

This table compares the two sets of commandments given in the Book of Exodus. It should be noted, however, that in Exodus 34:28 the set given in Exodus 34:12-26 is identified as the real ten commandments.

It's so silent out there
Where you are
With your big skies 

Keep it simple? 
Never. 
Simple is too black and white. 
And then where would neon colors and loud noises be? 
Where would be laughter? 
The friendships formed through strange circumstances
The innovative world changing ideas
The surprises, the upsets, the uprisings.
Personality, its not just neutrality
It's a beautiful complexity.
So keep it simple?
no.

Someday.
I'll look back on this.
I'll realize that it wasn't as bad as it seems now.
That really, I was just dramatic.
Someday. 
I will see.
You were there for me.
I know it, I understand it.
I just can't feel it now.
Someday.
I'll look at you.
I'll grab your hand.
I'll run against the wind and drag you along.
Run so fast we turn back time.
Someday.

I was your dreamgirl

I let you beat me

you always left me bloody... until I found my sanity

I was your dreamgirl

I wholly trusted you

I honestly loved you.... then you found someone new

I was your dreamgirl

I needed what you had

the fact that you were so desperate.... is just too bad

I was your dreamgirl

we could see the end

it was all perfect.... until I became your friend

I was your dreamgirl

you said it yourself

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